SARAHSAERAH

Thursday, January 29, 2009

I just need to vomit out everything that i'm feeling rite now and previous days.

i don noe why i'm feeling upset suddenly.
Actuali i'm not sure. it's jus mixing with other emotions.
I'm sad that i have to wait another two months for school.
I'm seriously hates waiting man.Everything always needs to wait.Klau sekalii skale tkble ke?
I noe i have work to do to kill these two months.
But it is so not rocking my day and the next and nextday.
I jus feel tired and exhausted.

At the end,I get what.
Money.Heh,it will just comes and goes.
And it's not like i'm gonna save it anyway.
U noe the feeling of sacrificing ur tyme,ur hardwork,ur sweats for just someone mistakes and u are likely force to get involved with.Uh,sucksla.
Then, to have the feeling of u're in fantasy world and till now u feel like u really need a hardcore wakeup call.i'm feeling been stucked and hanging to things that doesnt bring me any good.
I'm feeling so sad again.
and also regret because i wasted my money like that for this unwanted colour of my hair.

I wanted it to be slightly like this below.Gosh,F ok.That wasted money can use for something that worth it.I'm so sad.

Haiya..And also I miss my purple room.Now pinklikewhatlikethat!
These pictures below were like two years ago.I had painted it together with my sisters.

*sighs*I'm feeling down.Somehow i miss my raya2007 when i look at this picture.
Picture with my two sisters.Very funny because if we were not sisters,we'll be enemies with one another for sure!haha!And my hair at that tyme.*Sighs,I'm very sad and i miss it alot.

I just want things to move fastward and i can carry on with my life like i used to.Not very draggy like rite now.It's jus SUCKS!!ugh.I'm feeling so upset already:((((((((

7:13 PM

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Work was SUCHA _____________till rite now i'm feeling the pain.My legs was too much used.
Met Eza.Gosh,IMYSM la dey.haha.
Love the job ,hate the people.
Longhours.ckp jela fulltyme.irritating pple.
Love the stuffs.I want those stuffs.Major shop needed.
Friday posting result.Nervous tk terkate, adoi..
Me in butterfly,gotta sleep.
Panda eyes and small pores visibily out.ugh.
i have nuthing gerek to update till i have exciting or surprising news.
Till den.
zzzzzzzzzzzz.

11:59 PM

Friday, January 23, 2009

Yessahh!now kan relek2.pfft!tis week is such a tiring week.
I had 4 days to rest sepuas2nye.
Today,
Rushing back home from work to go to junction8 and cwp with Yana.
Get myself a pair of black slip-ons.We have our dinner at Mc and were laughing on top of our voices on some funny moments.
On Sunday,i'm going to work at Mphosis.Happy or wad.Whee..!
Ok,i have nuthing much to say.
till next entry.Toodles.

11:03 PM

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Lastyear fasting pic.

Everyday is just the same day this week.Wakeup,work,go back,sleep.

Tired and exhausted.Boring even.

hmm..i have no idea what to update but i want to say a lots and lots of thank you to Yana.She been very helpful to me for the past few weeks .

Mostly as far i could rmbr there's one of the weeks,i keep cuming to her place.Putting songs from her software in my new mp3 as well as my cousin's for two nights.and then i have problem with hair issue and went straight to her house for her comfort.I was so frustrated with my new hairdo.The colour i wanted was not what i had expected.SO_________.

But mostly everyone as well as she said there's nuthing wrong or what so ever with my hair except for my mom,sister and mira see what i see was wrong with it.Because of that,i had to dragged yana to follow me to buy revlon dark brown hairdye.I had to overnight at her place to finish off my hair issue and accompany her sleeping alone at home.

But still the haircolour had change abit only.I was so fucked up and the only thing that changes the colour is if i dye it black henna.So i had to ask for her help again to dye back my hair using 4 black henna.haha.anyway i look better in black.I was satisfied with her work.

But this week, I was very pemalas nak mampos to shampoo and condition it. i let it jus wash with hot water.dah mals nak layan.I let it just grow and grow and suprisingly my hair grew faster each day.

I can see my original hair colour root 2 inch of my finger below the last tyme haircolour which is brownblonde.The henna is fading also and the brownblonde is getting brighter.urgh..Seriously i don really like the hair colour(the previous entry pics 18 yrs old).It's not wad i wanted.

The last weekend candidshots.

After the hair issue thing,yana spent her free tyme with me jus to accompany me searching for sales job.

I'm really appreciate her help and was really thankful.She nevers complain or aniting except me frustrated with every situation.From hair till shoe issue and FEET!haha.

I also felt very guilty somehow. i feel like a burden to her.I'm so sorry Yana if i had made your life troublesome everytyme when it comes to me.You the greatest bestfren ever.no one can replace you.seriously,she the only person who understand me a lot for the past years since we met each other during primaryschools.

I can still rmbr during primary 2.reading tyme.I'm from class 2b and she's 2c.I was beside her.i wanted to exchange book with her.She had cinderella storybook.mcm bestkan.I wanted to smile and ask.But she give one kind of a look.It is still fresh in my mind rite now.hahaha.very sombong one.

Gosh,i missed schools.and yeah gonna be same school with my bestfriend again.I still cant believe it.I thought we going seperate ways but coincidently somehow i just feel fate wanted us to be strong together.I am very glad.

It's really weird because big quarrels and fights do exists and sometymes with feelings of,"klau aku da benci,seumor hidup aku akan benci"in me towards her unlike other pple,we be back together in the end.It is really surprising.To be honest,i am very opposite type of person like Yana if u read her blog.When i'm angry,it will turn ugly and worse.I fight for my rights and sometymes i dont care bout others's feelings when they really break my trust.

Hmm..wad else..ouhya,because yana was feeling so down and upset tis week,i had this video to cheer her up.Yana click and see this.Sarah rindu tgk cite ni.U must see especially starting on 4:34.Tgk muke SRK.hahaha!!Warning*don watch if u're unfav of hindustan.thanks.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fx7fqhPRB3Q&feature=PlayList&p=A3ABA0A38143262D&index=48

Ps:I don chat in msn while appearing offline.so dont assume that instant message of whatsover u get like,"Fuck you back!"is from me.I don speak like that without any reason.Somebody just wanted to give me a bad name.idiots.

peaceOut.

8:05 PM

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Age 15

Age 16

16+ + without makeup

Age 17

(2009)Will be 18 soon enough.

At Nanyang Poly

I have nuthing to update except putting up and looking through my old pics.It was so funny looking back at my pics when i was sec 3.Muke decentnonsense habis.hahaha.

Hmm.. tyme fly so fast that i can still rmbr my sec 1 year.so "kentalanbolaici."hah.this word was used by yana to tease me during my primary school.ya,can say she's can be mean sometymes,calling me names,"lipas,lipas,lipas".hahaha!

*sighs*promnite,school foods,recess etc2.Gosh,i missed my sch years aredy.Maybe because i'm stressing up with life rite now.Searching for work and havent move on.Haiz,sucks man.
I feel like getting my posting results and start my damn schooling at ite rite now.2 months waiting and working is so lame thing.no fun but tired and exhausted.

God,boring sia hidop!
pfft!
Nuthing fun except waiting for new member in the house.
wah tk sabar mau letak bomb sebelah die.
hahaahahaha!
ok,thats all.

11:07 PM

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

I had summit my choices.
Now,i can feel my heartbeat pumping hard.I guess i'm just so nervous.
In my mind says,"is this the rite path for me?if it is,thank god for it." Ya,i get my results. It was a disappointing and unexpected.
Can say that i was some sorf of freezing,bearly moved.I think my heartbeat jus stopped for a while after i looked my gf's results.
I mean klau die da dpt mcm tu,ape lagi aku.

When i see my results,jus tears falling.
*sighs*
I get 24 points.
BUT i'm very thankful because i had 5 credits out of 7 with my poa(the most subject that i awaes get F9)passing with grade 6.so still good lor.

First thing in my mind,i awaes think that no way i would go to ite.
I was really intend to go nafa,laselle and rp.
The course that i take if i went one of them is just my passion.2nd choice thing.Career may not be stable.

I think and think and think hard till i make myself awake and see myself in 30-40 years tyme.
So,i look to higher nitec.
I have accounting,banking,admin..etc2.
And i feel that these courses are much more better than the course i would take if i go poly.

After so much of thinking and asking, I made my first choice to be in banking services,h.nitec.
If i get this course,i aiming for poly and nuthing else.
Since primary school,i awaes wanted to be banker.
So,jus hoping i would be focusing and study hard.
Wa mau gaji besar mah..haha.

hmm,Gonna face it.
"suke ke tk suke ke,hidup mesti berani terime kenyataan.Dan paling penting skali hidup mesti diteruskan"
Seriously,i was still upset with my results.
what to do.
Takdir.
haha.

i'm trying be positive.
close my ears for all pple who talks negative upon me.

*to Eza and Dayah,thanks for ur support and advices.

.okae,so long,toodles. ;)

11:24 PM